parroket..lokaret!

nuninuninu…can’t write worthwhile things…i remember i have a neurotic blog that is rotting like catacombs deep down the dark throne of hell…err?…nonesense…i’ve written a poem…a poem that killed me two nights ago..”past is like a sharp knife that slits down my throat and cuts through my heart..i am bloody red..red as the tears of a lover..smudged lips of a bimbo..bottle of vodka that burns my tummy”….something like that…now i’m alive and kickin’ haha!…hmm..surreal but real…ironic…clashing ideas met by fate…i thank you!…hmmm..still dumbfounded by unforseen events..so spontaneous..loving it!..
a serious and very profound story how i found my swain (a keg of bittersweet intoxicating drink is the key, trust me..haha..) i am walking down a rocky path, my hands in my pocket silently listening to the soothing whispher of the cold breeze..i stumbled down..bruised..i lay still..thinking if i could stand up again and take another step..doubting my future..one last try..i stumbled once again but someone offered a hand..i grasped it..holding it real tight..that hand is mine and nobody can get it from me..don’t dare or i’ll kick your butt like a fevernova..ole..ole..ole..yeah!..the end..nice! haha! yeah right profound..shitty nonesense..hmmm..what else can you get from me but endless crappy statements… hmmm..seriously..i’m tremendously elated..soaring high above cloud nine..if this is a reverie of my perfect contentment, i will not dare to blink even for a second ..afraid to lose my “you are everything i want cos you are everything i’m not”…i want to keep “this” swain forever…i just wish time would permit our queer “you and i” thing…a thousand words aren’t enough to express my feelings…hmmm..hardcore action is the best way i think…haha! kiddin’…my swain..i love..=)

Shut up!- coach ruel

Par: anong date ngayon coach?!
Coach ruel: TWEYNTY FOUR!!! wahaha!

I can’t breathe…- gnet macatangay

Len! Absorb! - jeide kayanan ( nun kinontrol ni len ang bola sa tyan kaya lang tumalbog palayo..haha!)

Wag ang tuhod ko! sinabi ng wag ang tuhod ko e! - candy saclolo

Aray! Aray! - ryg (tuwing naiinjure ang ankle) ilock kasi ang ankle..hehe

Jeide: Hoy par! tumayo ka jan!
Par: ha? anong nangyari?  wala akong maalala..
(nagkaron ng temporary amnesia si par.. game vs science..haha!)

Tabi! hindi ko makita! - Bona (goal keeper)

Pag natalo tayo kasalanan mo! - sabi ni coach ruel sa pasaway na par.. haha!

Aaaiiiilleenn!!! off side ka!!! - jamie

Ano! suntukan tayo! - sabi ni par kay lito sa labas ng doobeach..haha!

Oo na naka lock na! Meron pa! Ryg! Lock your ankles!! - jedie (pag mag aattempt si ryg)

Kasalanan ko un! Di ko inayos pag depensa ko kaya nakagoal crs! -par (habang nag eemote ng lasing sa subic..wahaha!)

para akong nakawala sa kwarto na wlang pinto at bintana.. - joy (palakpakan naman ang drama e..haha!)

Next time coach! promise coach! - jeide the promisng star..haha!

FRIDAY SUCKS BIG TIME! I HATE THIS DAY! I SHOULD HAVE STAYED HOME INSTEAD OF HEATING MY ASS HERE LIKE A MORON WHILE WAITING FOR MY SHIFT TO END.  I WANT A COLD BOOZE TO LESSEN MY RANTING.. ARGH! IM SO PISSED OFF.. I HAVEN’T DONE ANYTHING FOR THIS DAY.. OH WELL I WATCHED THE CHEERDANCE, PLAYED THE PLAYMATE MANSION, ATE MY FREE LUNCH AND SMOKED MY CIGS TILL MY LUNGS ACHE..SUCH A LOSER..DORKY BITCH.. I’M NOT IN THE MOOD TO WRITE EARLIER BUT STILL I MANAGED TO SQUEEZE OUT SOME OBSCENE AND VULGAR WORDS AND BE CREATIVE EVEN IF MY HEAD BOBS UP AND DOWN..WHAT A WASTE OF EFFORT..I TRIED TO BE EFFICIENT SO I CAN ADD SOME DIALOGUES TO MY SCRIPT BUT THEN I’M AN IDIOT, I DID A BOO BOO.. CAN ANYONE PLEASE SLAP ME..FUCK..IMAGINE, I DISCARDED ALMOST 3,000 WORDS! I LOST 3/4 OF MY QUOTA! WOAH! CAN’T WRITE A PIECE OF SHIT RIGHT NOW FOR MY BAWDY WORK..I’M TIRED AND NOT IN THE MOOD TO DESCRIBE THOSE FILTHY BITCHES..IT’S ALWAYS THE SAME THING EVERYDAY..WHAT DOES SHE LOOK LIKE..HOW ABOUT HER BREASTS..HER ASS..HER FACE..WHAT’S THE USE OF THAT THESAURUS SHIT?!USE ALL THOSE SLEAZY WORDS..IT’S NOT THAT I HATE MY WORK OR I’M STARTING TO LOSE INTEREST I JUST HAD A BAD DAY AND THIS IS DEFINITELY NOT A SPLENDID WAY TO START MY WEEKEND.. I’M PREOCCUPIED AND EXCITED ABOUT MY BOOZEFEST TOMORROW..WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED..I DID SOMETHING THAT I KNOW I’LL KEEP ON THINKING LATER TIL TOMORROW..FUCK!.. WAHAHA..I WAS TEARY EYED A WHILE AGO..I’M STILL PISSED OFF BUT RANTING WOULD NOT DO ME ANY GOOD AT ALL..WAH! ENOUGH OF THIS SHITTY NONESENSE..I’LL JUST GO HOME AND WRITE SOME HILARIOUS/DRAMATIC STUFF FOR MY SCRIPT..I REALLY NEED TO WORK ON THAT.. FRIDAY IS MY DEATH DAY..I’M A DEAD KIDDO! WAH!

yak!.. ang sweet ko daw ngaun.. e oo nga.. hmm.. namiss ko lang kada ko.. ann..beng..tashei..lizel..mara..renadel..pauline..sharon..tina.. i had fun kanina.. sobra..sobra..=).. nalaos ang futbol..haha.. so high school.. nakakatuwa.. funny story pa, nagpretend akong blind a while ago sa mall sa rob.. i was wearing this cool bumblebee shades..hehe..c tashei kunwari un guide or whatever ko.. we went up sa popeye’s para kuhanin un alcohol..xempre escalator tpos i was pretending na i can’t see the steps and i was waving my hands frantically..basta while we were walking nakahawak lang ako sa shoulders nya..tinitignan daw ako ng mga tao..sobrang panalo sa patawa..umupo pa ko sa chair talaga at todo kapa kuno..haha..kaya lang may katangahan..pabalik na kme.. sa sobrang kasiyahan e natripan mag high five ayun..nasapul ni bulag un kamay ni tashei.. funny lang talaga nun naisipan kong gawin kanina..mag pretend na bulag e kse naman asa loob ng mall nakashades.. e gusto ko suot un so nagpretend na lang ako na ganun..harhar.. patok!..basta shitty days are over..yeah..yeah..no more sulking or whatever..love ko kada ko..one reason to be euphoric, ecstatic, magnetic, fantastic and absolutely barbaric..haha!

tired na ko..cnt sleep naman..hui panget na may cutie tummy tinulugan mo ko..haha..thanks for reminding me about laguna beach..uy, naalala ako..kiddin’..super sweet pro sobrang player or whorebag i think..ahahaha..i remember this line from laguna beach "don’t hate the game, hate the player".. e wala lang..watchatink..watchatink.."love the game, love the player"..err..not sure about that..haha..hmmm..nyemas! first time humingi ako ng sign.. we were eating sa galle kanina e nahawa ako kay chopra..hingi naman ako ng sign..sana di ko na lang ginawa..dead kiddo..confused kiddo..doomsday..apocalypse..whatever.. not a good sign..i was a bit surprised..e di ata..i saw it coming na naman e..yuck..feeling..maybe not really meant for me..i could only provide a grin as of now..let’s see if this would last..not a shitty day for me..but still..but still..a surly fucking life..at least nag smile na ko..

so much for the preppy tunes..the invsible harajuko whatever with a beautiful eyesore..let’s just play hide and seek instead..side by side..far behind..i’ll close my eyes..just walk away..i’ll follow you soon..

Where are we? What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just begun to fall,
Crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling.
Spin me round again and rub my eyes.
This can’t be happening.
When busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy.

Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines.
All those years they were here first.

Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before.
The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this
still life.

Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines. (Oh, you won’t catch me around here)
Blood and tears,
They were here first.

Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that you only meant well? Well, of course you did.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it’s all for the best? Ah off course it is.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it?s just what we need? And you decided this.
Mmm what you say?
What did she say?

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I dont believe you.
You don’t care a bit. You don’t care a bit.

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I don’t believe you.
You don’t care a bit. You don’t care a bit.

You don’t care a bit.
You don’t care a bit.
You don’t care a bit.
You don’t care a bit.
You don’t care a bit.

hmmmm..ang labo lang..e ako pala malabo..tangina gusto ko lang sumigaw..errr talaga…e bakit ba ko apektado..e ewan ko din..auko lan aminin..auko..hindi na kse..hindi na pde..auko na lang..ang dami nang sinabi..auko ng dagdagan pa..wla rin namang mangyayari..e basta alam ko gusto ko pro auko makuha…labo..aba oo naman..hehe..um, basta steady lang…steady!…stay…faraway..so close..far behind..just stay… e cguro nga ganun na lan un..ganito na lan..tama na..tama..ganito na lan..basta ang alam ko importante pa rin sya….hanggang dun na lan un..sbe nga niya period……………………………………………………

Parang ayaw ko na kitang mawala
Minsan lang darating
Mawawala pa ba ang minsan

unti unti nang nawala

sigaw ng kasiyahan

nasukluban ng mapait na luha

pilit kong tinago

ngunit mabigat na ang aking mata

pati labi ay matamlay

sa mga patak na iyon

mababakas ang nasayang ng pagkakataon…..

hay! nkkpagod na araw..kumusta nmn noh?! ngpunta ako ng ust pra magtrainin e nmn npakadamot..basa daw ang field kya d pde..nco lan effort sa pagdala ng gamit noh! pro syempre nmn di ren mkatiis at sumipa din kme…in fairness a lumilipad na ang roteiro sken..wahaha..bleh! may pauso pa c coach na lakad lan ang buwelo bago sumipa..ahuh?!mukang imposible pro nmn pde pla un..aba syempre inasar ko muna sya..lakad mahal ba kamo..aheheh.. at after sumipa e di pa nasiyahan at nagbasketball pa kht madilim na..nyay! daming energy… pauso pa c coach, hook shot daw..asus palibhasa di makapag lay-up pano pilay(pro nmn malakas pa rin sumipa)…ano pa nga ba e effort ang hook shot..di ko kaya..lay-up na lan..haha…at syempre pa umeksena na nmn si manong guard..(pumito)..at eto na nmn ako c arte artihan.."we’re done na..we’re not basketball players naman e..look o we’re using soccer balls kaya.."at syempre pa pasaway nga nmn..huling hirit na reverse lay-up..naks nmn!!=p tpos kumain na kme kse bday ni coach..nagdala rin c yvette ng isang bilaong spaghetti..aba nmn gurly gurly ang outfit pro macho machohan..haha..peace!kagulat nga nmn..=p inuna muna nmen ang spag den un cake ni coach..aba syempre cno nauna..e di kme ni denise..hahah..nilantakan na nmn ang cake..kababuyan nga nmn..at ang huling natapos kumain..AKO!..sarap ng cake e..yum..yum..di ko lam kun nkailan ako..haha..hmmm..after nun muwi na kme..=o e sna lan noh kun diretso uwi na ko pro dumaan pa ko ng tiangge sa marikina pra bumili ng gift pra sa baby ko..hay effort nga nmn..daming tao malamang..kumusta nmn ang paa ko e nka flip flops lan ako..parumihan na lan ng paa…eto pa ang bigat ng bag ko at nalibot ko ang buong tiangge sa marikina..dulo to dulo ba..aba nmn syempre naubos ang sankatutak kong kinain na spag at cake…nkabili na ko ng gusto niya..yey..may gift na ko sa klasm8 ko..=p syempre nagtitipid nga nmn..gulaman lang ang katapat ko sa halagang 5 piso..hahahha..kwawa nmn..ang laki pa nmn ng nabili ko..2 supot..so naisip kong mag cab na lan pro nmn effort din sa pagkuha ng cab..buti na lan may jeep na wlang laman kundi sa killer bus na nmn ako sasakay..hay hirap nga nmn muwi…e di wokei na dhl nakaskay na ko.. pgdteng samen nkita ko mom ko wid her friend galing sa xmas party sa church so tinawag ko dhl sobrang pagod na ko..e nmn..nmn..nmn..pinabuhat sken un mga regalo nyang ntanggap…e kumusta nmn un 2 plastic bag na malaki na buhat ko..db?! aba syempre gud gurl na ko e di binuhat ko na rin…hay!..at pagdateng ng hse..tlaga nmn kumusta nga nmn itsura ko noh..pra kong tinatawag ng banyo…so go na tlaga at magshower tpos nag dinner na ko..yum..yum..ay w8..MAY BAGO NG HOUSING UN FONE KO!!! o ayan a wag nyo na kong kaawaan dhl di nyo na mkkta ng fone ko na puno ng green na tape..sa mga nagsabing magreregalo ng housing e paki iba na lan..hahah=p sobrang nkkpagod..nmn..nmn..mag aaral pa ko for african lit..hay..di ko pa lam kun magllib ako bukas..a bhala na..bsta nabili ko na gift ko..wokei na..=p waaaah! bitin…gusto ko magfutbol..kya lan wed pa nxt trainin..may klas nmn ako ng 6..tpos sa thurs nmn e xmas parteee ng klas nmn..*sob*..sa friday na lan..yey..yey!!!=p tpos sunday ulit..yey..yey..=p

nyay…nyay…nyay…tuesday….3:00 p.m, may shakespeare class ako…boring!…diretso ng dapitan to look for billie…wla sa bk…pasok ng ust…nagkasalubong kami so balik ng dapitan…puff…puff…kwento abt excuse letter for p.e…uwi na sya*kiss*i saw spongebob chocolate watever…never akong nag hi…nakakahiya…pasok ng ust…i saw che and we went back to dapitan…puff…puff…puff…dude came(sabog,wla pang assignment)…keber…puff…puff…we’re talking about d food we have to prepare for saturday..puffffff…i fidgeted to d right…woah! i saw spongebob chocolate watever ulit…nakatitig lan ako…nakatingin din sya…for 10 seconds(sus, sakto ba yan?!)…first time ko lan sya tinignan…me topak ata ko e…wlang reaksyon…kabado…biglang nag smile…puta! un na…my fingers moved…a faint wave…shit…ang lame…i smiled din…tpos umalis na sya…pumasok ako ng rum ng masaya…i welcomed shakespeare wid a big smile on my face…